It's gonna End Where It's all initially Begins

I recieved a phonecall yesterday,It was calling from the lawyer officer,i was told to be at his office today at 2.30pm to have the document signed.As i was face-booking thru my timeline and i actually realised that today was 14th Feb(Valentine's day).It all begin 13 yrs ago on this very actual day,never did i realized that it's gonna end on this very actual day 13yrs later.Be it a coincidence or puporsely arranged,finally it ended these long years of confused,undecisive moment.Whatever it may come,will comes...be it good or bad.
It a freedom to both of us,a released option which have been hovering for these long 5yrs however it finally came to a releasing point,hence....i sincerely hope for all the best to you and your new life and i will always remembered this day,a day which human created for a small celebration for loved ones emarks the day which created us and it actually also embarks the end of us.

Sound corny and dramatic...but that's the truth...a day where everything begin is also the day where everything ended.14021999-14022012.

Ashley,i hope u can forgive the unforgiven me for all the pain and sadness that was brewed during the moment of  our stubborn and intensive decision that free the both of us from something we do not have belief anymore.



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I thought i was having FUN,enjoying life,having excitment!!I was WRONGGGGGG!!It was totally different when i realised the consequences that it will only bring hurt for whatever decision was made,so often one's was too involved into his world and started to realise that other people was really careing about him and it becomes a habit that it should be,but this is all a BLESSING and not a MUST!When you realised it,it always comes too late,just too late for it,even you started to realise that it was actually a blessing.
当你查觉到你已经不再被在枞容,那是因为她已经被伤害了
就是在一刹那,快如闪电的杀伤力,已足够带来悲伤,绝望.
你每次伤心 我每次缺席,我放不过我自己,转一圈回到了原地

但如经,我只可以把眼泪当成一种提醒.
寂寞寂寞就好.........







 

My day started with meeting up BB and mum to bring BB to shop for her CNY clothing,was wandering around town area,unable to find something BB like,so we headed to scotts...finally got her a tunic dress from MANGO and i hope she will like it,then came Vern to pass some CNY goodies to both of them and we headed for dinner,although it was a tiring day however it was worth the effort as BB was really enjoying herself with japanese cusine and ice cream...
I realized that i have missed out alot during her growth,it was a fruitful trip as i learned alot of things about BB and her life now.Vern and her was talking all through out the dinner session,there was a kind of bonding which i had missed it for a very very long time...can't wait for the next meet up.

Singapore flyer!!Here we come!!

I know it was a mistake 2 years ago which affected you,although time can't be reverse and things would not even changed for now,but you have always been on my mind since that very day.How i wish that i could hold your little hand to school,your laughter never fails to make my day,your monkey face which led you to a good beating by mummy.
The only memories through out the years was just the photo of you that were accompany me thru my hard time,i do not expect much,just hope you are in good hands,well taken care of and healthy.Even though now that life have changed,the fact of you are that you are still my lovely BB............

She tapped me from behind and i turn around,i paused for a few seconds,take a deep breath,she asked me"You not working here?"I thought that she would not called me and never did i expected,we chat for a while,a really open chat and a peaceful one instead...hehe,there was no hatred,no sore feeling,no screaming,not hostile..im GALD!!
Thinking back,i really miss out alot for these past 3years,even thou the outcome was to nobody liking but some time things just don't turn out as everybody would hope so,that's life,we gotta learn to take it as it comes.i feel happy when i see you living your life so well,being happy,a new life,new companion.regrets is not the word to hover my mind now.what's done can't be undone,sincerely i do hope u are living your life well and happy now.
Thanks for bringing out such a beautiful one to the world for me.........from my bottom of my heart,THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME ONCE BEFORE

It's 2011!!There goes the not gonna remembered 2010,it's just feel so much better with a new year,new beginning and of course a NEW ME....Nothing can be better than now as im really making my time full of uses,more meaningful.
You can have your fucking life for all i care,u can do whatever you want for all i care...the bottom line is What you do is ur fucking biz!!Whhahaha...Recently there was just too much rumours and i wondered how did it happened?Never did i expected all this,just way too much for me to digest...But currently im just not gonna think so much...so sorry!!
Life wasn't just about commintment and getting serious i guess,ive been wasting too much time pursing something and it's something that i having a pobia rite now.Just wonder why some ppl could rush into things that fast,is it possible?maybe or maybe not...maybe it's just about getting a replacement rite after an encounter however I DUN GIVE A FUCK!!Whahahaha....bon Jovi sang "its my life,it's now or never,im ain't gonna live forever" so what you do is ur fucking life,not mine...for mine..i will live it good,live it well,live it enjoyable...KK,i really got a shock about you,but i really does not wanna think so far,so much..so sorry,i noe some things you can't control de,sorry for things to turn out this way,SZ!!you are really so silly,sometimes even tickle my laughing veins!!lols...but time is just enjoyable with you around...
WF...thanks for accompany me when im in my down period,somethings that are meant to be will be...i know there's a lot of thing that you think i do not know,i wun even ask...if you feel that the time is rite to say it out,you can have the time,just be happy ba...
To all peeps out there,sometimes learning to survive in adverse situation will make you stronger as they are a test in your life which will test you to fall and pick up again,so nevermind the adverse,welcome them and make it a solution which will help u understand a lot of ppl and situation around you!!
Take care and awaiting for the CNY which i will coming to attend,Mum,Sis,BB and all my loved one...pls leave your door open,I WILL BE BACK!!It will not be like last 2years ago...disappearing without a trace just a mobile to reach me!!!I can't wait!!!hehe

For the past weeks,thoughts have rampage thru my mind,thinking about what's to plan ahead..Thanks to all these adverse situation,god's test to me..it's time to pick myself up and carry on with my life!!!
Life is all about making decision!!Once made,do not look back and do not regret coz life'stoo short for that,it was meant for other better purposes!!
Thank you for all these adverse!!What doesn't kill me will just make me STRONGER!!
I have been shutting myself out too long,maybe it'stime to do what i think i should do!!
When you have did your best,do not worry about the result as they said,you can do whatever you can...the rest will depends on fate!!
Once again...Thanks to all those adverse!!!
I have learn to love it rather than sitting in a corner whining and moaning!!!
LIFE GOES ON ya!!!